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Comments
i like someone i shouldn't. not because he's not a good person or a nice guy or whatever... but because of the awkwardness it'll create with our mutual friends if anything were to ever happen. he's fresh out of a serious, long term relationship, however, he and i have always had a zillion things in common and now it's okay for me to have a crush on him like i have for as long as i can remember. i'm confused because the other night nothing big or serious happened, but my friend and i went over to his house... he's in a band and he lives with another guy in the band so we were all drinking and playing apples to apples (at like 2am) and dancing around the basement to mj for hours. it was SO fun. he laid out a bed for all of us, and i was next to him, i didn't want to do anything because i didn't want to push boundaries, he got up and then ended up being the big spoon to my little spoon, and then he grabbed my hand and held it...
10 minutes later, he gets up to get us water and invited anyone who wanted to come upstairs, i just laid there because i knew better... i laid on the floor with my roommate/friend and the other 2 guys that we were hanging out with were spread out around us
BUT. part of me wanted to go sleep with him (not SLEEP with him, but continue the lovely spoon fest) but i know a big part of it was b/c we were drunk, but another part of me wishes and hopes he may like me too.
i'm so confused and it's one of the many things that keep my mind racing at night
I'd say go for it this Wednesday
It's alright dear, I do too.
Katie:
My advice (though its not from experience at all) to you is to go for it - it seems like you've got a shot with this guy and don't let potential awkwardness with mutual friends hold you back. As long as you are able to recognize your limits in terms of PDA and avoid other blatant gestures portraying your relationship with the guy when you are with mutual friends, then things will be fine. Also, if you keep a good balance between spending time with boy and spending time with friends, I think you'll be set. Good luck and I hope everything works out for the best!
they look like they were from back when the guy was morbidly obese and he still hasn't bought new clothes
because they are practically falling down to his ankles and force him to walk like he still is morbidly obese and can't properly move his legs back and forth and instead has to swing them out to the side and then forward
so stupid.
(sorry for the ranting)
poor joe
*hug*
Ah fuck. I'm so sorry.
yes. poo.
don't know if it will help at all, but maybe try to think of all the
things you can do now that you couldn't when you were in a relationship
idk, it might just be a stupid idea...
anyway, feel better
::HUGS::
thanks rozay (thats rachel's name untill i can think of something better) just need to keep busy or ill relapse and start calling her every 5 seconds.
well, yeah, that's sorta' what i was thinking,
but it doesn't sound very good when you put it like that
please don't drink all the scotch though!
save some for the rest of us!
i dont have any answers. i have some hope left for the future. but its not realistic. probably. ive learned my lesson, thursday was a mistake. i wish i could take it all back. i put a lot of thought into what i was going to do, what i was going to say. but none of it mattered. i hate guys with fauxhawks and like high school music. seeing her and him was the hardest thing i ever had to see. seeing them walk away. together. leaving me alone. alone. ALONE. with nothing, nobody. i was out in the cold untill i could get out of that hellhole and try to move on. the bus eventually came. but i never left that hellhole. i havent moved on, its only been a day, but how could i ever move on? i was going to marry her. and she had every intention of marrying me. or at least she did untill he showed up. what does he have that i dont? and why couldnt she just be honest with me? why couldnt she tell me what was going on inside her? why just abandon me when i needed her the most. i needed her so much. ive hit a rough patch in my life, and i thought i would be ok as long as i had her to help me. but i dont. i needed her friendship and i cant even have that. i wish i knew what to do. i wish i knew how to move on. sometimes i feel like im beggining to be ok. sometimes i feel angry and betrayed, sometimes i feel claustrophobic, sometimes im afraid of open spaces. sometimes i feel like i can move on and i can be happy, but those moments dont last. mostly i feel confused, and sad, and abandoned, and i feel lied to, i feel like theres something wrong with me, who else can i blame right? i had every oportinity to be a good person and to be a good pertner to her. i dont know what i did wrong, i dont know how to fix it. i dont know anything. im not even sure it can be fixed. i mnot sure i can be fixed. i want her back even if she is a shallow bitch. i dont want to speak badly of her, maybe its paranoia or just insecurities about myself. but can you blame me? losing someone like this after all the time i invested and all the sacrifices i made for her, it breaks your spirit, it crushes your self esteem and you feel like nothing, like a nobody, like you could never find anyone else. i hate it. i hate complaining. i hate being sad, i hate being angry, i hate hating. i hate most things. i dont want to hate anymore. i want to live again, i want to be able to think about other things, i want to be able to sleep again, i want to be able to eat again. i wish i was an alcoholic, i wish i was a different person alltogether. its not easy for someone like me to find another person. im not an easy person to love, i think certain things about the way i live make it harder for someone to love me and for me to love someone. im sick. physically sick, and probably really sick inside too. i want it all to stop.
Just remember in the meanwhile that there's NOTHING wrong with you. It's going to hurt for a while,and that part really does suck, but it will (albeit slowly) begin to get better.