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It was ridiculous. I just stood there and tried realy hard not to touch everything. It's in our little art museum. However, I would imagine he's touring with it, so if you look him up, maybe he'll be coming closer to you? I love art museums. I honestly could spend hours just wandering.
I'm definitely checking if he's coming anywhere near here. Museums do the same to me, I feel at peace, if you can believe that, I love art.
1) I am totally completely unfuckingmotivated to do ANYTHING other than sit here on the computer and listen to music. And I mean ANYTHING. I haven't even unpacked my suitcase from Hawai'i, LET ALONE all the stuff in the garage from school, NOR have I gone out to find a job. I'm really mad, because I should be doing these things, but I just can't bring myself to do ANY of it, and it's making me upset.
2) I brought this up today at dinner, and about how all I want to do is go to concerts and go on the computer, and my dad got all mad, saying that "concerts are going to ruin your life" or some shit, and that I should have been concentrating more on school than on going to concerts this semester. Which may be true, BUT I managed to pull off three B+ and one A- this semester, which I don't consider to be bad AT ALL, especially when I was expecting to get a C in one of those classes. And the A- was in my Costume Design class, which was REALLY FUCKING HARD and I put A LOT of effort into it, and I'm really proud of that grade.
Anyway, so later, I'm watching Franz on SNL (rerun, yay!) with my mom and he comes into the room, stomps around a bit, and then goes to leave, and turns to me and says, like, "You're getting obsessed, kid!" and storms out.
Oh, gee, thanks, Dad. 'Cause I wasn't already upset with my life and where I am and where I'm going about how I'm COMPLETELY UNFUCKINGSURE (I like how I keep adding fucking in the middle of words for emphasis) ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT I WANT TO GO ABROAD NEXT YEAR, let alone whether or not I want to go to school next year AT ALL, when this is SUPPOSED to be what I've wanted for FOUR YEARS. You felt you just had to go and rub in the fact that the ONLY thing I seem to care about right now is supposedly ruining my life.
/rant
And I'm TIRED of being the good kid. I'm tired of getting the great grades, I'm tired of being responsible all the time. When I was in high school, I NEVER went to concerts or stayed out late with friends or smoked or drank or did anything bad at all. Not that I didn't have a good time in high school not doing all of that. But my life has changed a LOT since high school, and a LOT in the past year, and now that I'm 20, I'm kind of ready to live a little bit more.
Also, thanks for the "virtual hug."
It won't fail you, I promise.
I watched it with my boyfriend tonight. We planned a cheap horror film night and that film took the cake.
There are references to the Mikado in it. And the killer doesn't change his clothes. Ever. And to top that, he only wheres this outfit that looks like it's from the SplinterCell game.
I don't know what I'd do without you guys.
But yeah you're the one you have to listen to, always follow your gut feeling, and if it says, these are gonna be the days when you will grow into a butterfly, then sweetheart, let the cocoon do it's work, don't try to get out of it when it's not the time
I don't know what I'd do without you guys.
Oh sweets *virtual bear hug* things are gonna be ok
Beh, I'm just babbling, but long story short: feel better. <3
1) I am totally completely unfuckingmotivated to do ANYTHING other than sit here on the computer and listen to music. And I mean ANYTHING. I haven't even unpacked my suitcase from Hawai'i, LET ALONE all the stuff in the garage from school, NOR have I gone out to find a job. I'm really mad, because I should be doing these things, but I just can't bring myself to do ANY of it, and it's making me upset.
2) I brought this up today at dinner, and about how all I want to do is go to concerts and go on the computer, and my dad got all mad, saying that "concerts are going to ruin your life" or some shit, and that I should have been concentrating more on school than on going to concerts this semester. Which may be true, BUT I managed to pull off three B+ and one A- this semester, which I don't consider to be bad AT ALL, especially when I was expecting to get a C in one of those classes. And the A- was in my Costume Design class, which was REALLY FUCKING HARD and I put A LOT of effort into it, and I'm really proud of that grade.
Anyway, so later, I'm watching Franz on SNL (rerun, yay!) with my mom and he comes into the room, stomps around a bit, and then goes to leave, and turns to me and says, like, "You're getting obsessed, kid!" and storms out.
Oh, gee, thanks, Dad. 'Cause I wasn't already upset with my life and where I am and where I'm going about how I'm COMPLETELY UNFUCKINGSURE (I like how I keep adding fucking in the middle of words for emphasis) ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT I WANT TO GO ABROAD NEXT YEAR, let alone whether or not I want to go to school next year AT ALL, when this is SUPPOSED to be what I've wanted for FOUR YEARS. You felt you just had to go and rub in the fact that the ONLY thing I seem to care about right now is supposedly ruining my life.
/rant
Awww, sweetheart, my parents' are the same way. They think I'm nuts for liking OK Go so much and spending every extra second on the computer. But don't make them question you goin abroad!!!!!
They're not the ones making me question, I'm questioning myself and whether or not I really want to be in school next year (which is scary for me, because I NEVER thought I'd get to the point where I'd question that), and if I don't really want to be in school next year, then I feel like going abroad isn't going to help at all.
But this is basically now or never. If I take a leave of absence, I 1) don't know what I'd do for the year (or even a semester), and 2) I don't know if I'd get reaccepted into the study abroad program again for my junior year when I return. And if that happened, that would mean I couldn't go abroad (at least not to France, which is where I want to go), period, 'cause I'd have to be back on campus for my junior year, and I really can't go my senior year.
Also, I really do want to graduate on time and with all of my close friends. So it's kind of like, I know I'm going to be in school again come September, even as much as I'm sitting here and asking whether or not I want to be.
Or maybe I'm just dumb.
and I mean god how do you say at 20 that you wanna be with someone for the rest of your life. how scary is that. i just don't know anything anymore.
I mean, you don't know. You just don't. My mom was married at 21, and I still wonder at how she did it. I can't fathom being married a year from now, to anyone.
I hope things work out between the two of you. *hugs*
(my parents got married at 18 and 21, and theyre still together, so i mean i know it works. i'm just so scared i would lose him if i were ever to say anything. no better way to scare a guy than talk about commitment eh!?)