I think I might be getting sick. Today my choir teacher came to school. She has cancer, so she can't teach this year cause she's getting chemo, and she really needs the time off. She came to hear us sing. I told her she looked good, and she did except that she was so thin, and paler than usual. When I saw how thin she was, I just started crying again, but really quietly. I always cry when I think about her. When she first told me she had cancer she apologized for ruining my senior year. I told her not to worry about things like that and to just focus on taking care of herself. I always think about that when I see her. She's that kind of person. Why would she care about me at a time like this...waste of energy, and she needs it, you know? But that's just the kind of person she is...so thoughtful. And God, when I think about her children...I used to be able to control my emotions, but lately I've been kind of a wreck. I can't save it till I'm alone anymore. Everytime I even think about her, or Jamie or Papa, it's like the fucking Niagra. It makes me seem unstable, or way too vulnerable for people to take me seriously. I don't mean to be a downer, but it's been on my mind, ok? And this is the random thoughts thread, so...yeah. That's all, I guess.
I totally understand what you are talking about. My sister had thyroid cancer and it was very difficult to pretend like everything was go. I used to find myself cry quietly when she wasn;t around bc i was soo scared.
a friend of mine recently passed away fromlukemia and it is a very difficult thing to deal with but as long as you show love, support and keep them in your prayers you must stay positive...at least try to
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And this is the random thoughts thread, so...yeah. That's all, I guess.
My sister had thyroid cancer and it was very difficult to pretend like everything was go. I used to find myself cry quietly when she wasn;t around bc i was soo scared.
a friend of mine recently passed away fromlukemia and it is a very difficult thing to deal with but as long as you show love, support and keep them in your prayers you must stay positive...at least try to
hahahaha!
I HAVE NO SCHOOL TOMORROW! YAY!
Back to nature...
Back to nature...
say what?
Mum: whos this on the radio
Andy: its the pussycat dolls...there number one...its better then madaona
Mum: well there sexyer then madona
Andy: anythings sexyer then madona
ironic!
We Are Scientists!
On Jan. 15 at the Magic Stick in Detroit!
I think this will be my first concert of next year, unless another comes up before that.
WOO!