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Comments
believe it or not...i'm kinda in the same mood...
at least when you're at school you don't have time to ask yourself stupid questions and feeling miserable about yourself...
you obviously don't have geek friends
I do! You guys! Haha JK JK.
I don't like school. I feel the opposite way than you guys do. When I'm at school, I've always got this bad feeling.
there's always a time that we don't actually love what we're doing. Last year i've started a minor that i've HATED! i couldn't stand the contents or my collegues. So i'm going to change to a different college and a diffrent major this year...i'm tired of having hell on earth
Aw...
maybe it's the same with you courtney, you're not liking what you're studing...
maybe it's the same with you courtney, you're not liking what you're studing...
Yes, I hope so.
But I don't like studying at all, haha!
It's mostly because of homework - how I detest it.
They SHOULD!
Then I wouldn't mind it so much.
1. I love learning..
2. I get to flaunt my school's reputation. Best non-private secondary school in the country!
3. My english teacher is awesome. Mr. Pizzuti, the most stylin' man in Canada according to the Globe and Mail... he won $5000 for it. He was supposed to go on a huge shopping spree with the money, but they just gave him $5000 cash so he went to Peru for two weeks... soo looking forward to the stories at summer school.
Heeee
3. My english teacher is awesome. Mr. Pizzuti, the most stylin' man in Canada according to the Globe and Mail... he won $5000 for it. He was supposed to go on a huge shopping spree with the money, but they just gave him $5000 cash so he went to Peru for two weeks... soo looking forward to the stories at summer school.
Heeee
2. That is really something!
3. Just by his name, he sounds cool.
3. Just by his name, he sounds cool.
I love that show!!
does anyone else feel like everyone is dating everyone but us?
up until about a year ago, i had this friend i'll call j. we were -- i thought -- tight; we collaborated on a few short films and had a charged friendship. (i had a huge unrequited love for him, and would have laid down in the street for him.) he seemed -- maddeningly -- unaware of my feelings for him, which we never discussed. i was operating under the belief that if i loved him enough, and if i was a good woman, he would wake up one morning with the realization that i was, in fact, a good woman, and would fall in love with me. about a year ago, he came back through town with this twenty year old girl who he claimed was not his girlfriend, and asked me to work on a film he was directing. the moment i saw the dynamic between him and the girl, i knew he'd been bullshitting me. i walked off the set of his film and stopped talking to him.
a few days ago a friend of mine posted this whole thing about how you cannot will someone else into loving you. this got me to thinking about our friendship/relationship -- the fact that i was always, unfailingly, there for him, that he would disappear for months and then call me expecting that our friendship would be exactly where it was, the times i held his hair back when he puked, the garter-stitch scarf i knitted for him. the fantasy i had that we would be like patti smith and tom verlaine, having a romance based on our shared artistic endeavors. i thought about how badly that failed, and how i wish he realized how much i meant to him and reciprocated.
and then i realized that he did realize how much he meant to me. unfortunately, instead of acting on that realization for good, he used me to get what he needed.
i've been in some pain about this, but i've also thought less about our friendship in the past few days -- like this was the last piece in the puzzle i needed to move on. i still wonder about him a lot, though -- where he is, what he's doing, whether the thought of his behavior keeps him up at night.
I'm in a bit of a similar boat. Being busy with school is nice b/c not everyone is so fixated on finding boys, but at the same time, Fall makes me want a boyfriend... I don't know what my deal is.
1. I love learning..
2. I get to flaunt my school's reputation. Best non-private secondary school in the country!
3. My english teacher is awesome. Mr. Pizzuti, the most stylin' man in Canada according to the Globe and Mail... he won $5000 for it. He was supposed to go on a huge shopping spree with the money, but they just gave him $5000 cash so he went to Peru for two weeks... soo looking forward to the stories at summer school.
Heeee
DUDE!! That's QUITE a lot to brag about!! Especially your badass teacher!! I'm insanely jealous!
I'm so watching ANTM right now... Caridee's season
Stany... almost word for word, feeling for feeling, everything sounds SO similar to a friendship/relationship I couldn't really describe any better. To sum it up, he basically used me because I would do ANYTHING for him, at ANYTIME... he wouldn't disappear so much, but just, not return my phone calls or whatever. It wasn't like that at first, or for the first year of knowing him, but last summer, that's what happened. Like, got a girlfriend who he said wasn't, etc. I'm feeling with you right now because I'm STILL dealing with it, and I thought for the longest time "WHAT have I done wrong?! Why am I not good enough?" all of that.. I'm so sorry you're feeling the same.
up until about a year ago, i had this friend i'll call j. we were -- i thought -- tight; we collaborated on a few short films and had a charged friendship. (i had a huge unrequited love for him, and would have laid down in the street for him.) he seemed -- maddeningly -- unaware of my feelings for him, which we never discussed. i was operating under the belief that if i loved him enough, and if i was a good woman, he would wake up one morning with the realization that i was, in fact, a good woman, and would fall in love with me. about a year ago, he came back through town with this twenty year old girl who he claimed was not his girlfriend, and asked me to work on a film he was directing. the moment i saw the dynamic between him and the girl, i knew he'd been bullshitting me. i walked off the set of his film and stopped talking to him.
a few days ago a friend of mine posted this whole thing about how you cannot will someone else into loving you. this got me to thinking about our friendship/relationship -- the fact that i was always, unfailingly, there for him, that he would disappear for months and then call me expecting that our friendship would be exactly where it was, the times i held his hair back when he puked, the garter-stitch scarf i knitted for him. the fantasy i had that we would be like patti smith and tom verlaine, having a romance based on our shared artistic endeavors. i thought about how badly that failed, and how i wish he realized how much i meant to him and reciprocated.
and then i realized that he did realize how much he meant to me. unfortunately, instead of acting on that realization for good, he used me to get what he needed.
i've been in some pain about this, but i've also thought less about our friendship in the past few days -- like this was the last piece in the puzzle i needed to move on. i still wonder about him a lot, though -- where he is, what he's doing, whether the thought of his behavior keeps him up at night.
I'm sorry for what happened to you
but, you know what? i've found out something in my life...if a guy sees you as a solid friend, he rarely will see you as girlfriend material...unless he was you friend at first place because he thought you were girlfriend material...well, less confusing, they don't have the same tendency as we do to mix up stuff unless they're drunk...